Remember When…

Short, but Powerful, Correspondence

[Bible verses added for reference. -WG]

From: A— (My dear friend in the Lord)
To: D— (Me/WayfaringGal)
Sent: Sun, July 1, 2012 5:05:01 AM
Subject: Remember?

Remember when you were very hungry and thirsty for the word of God, to meditate in the bible every day (Matt 5:6). And if you got busy in the world you would get very upset and rude being uneasy because you did not have that thirst and hunger filled for a time.

And remember after you read and meditated in the bible for some time you were filled with his word (John 6:35). Then you became dead or closed to his word for a short time.   

Then you got refreshed and continued to read again. Being hungry and thirsty again, then hedged in without hope. (Psalm 88:9)

The times of refreshing between reading/meditating in his word and becoming more and more dead began to close and were becoming more and more narrow every year/month/weeks/days. 

Finally no more reading or meditating was possible! The times of refreshing has been shut! Now no more hunger or thirst. 

That deadness, can’t read anymore settled in only to stay. Shut up without hope has arrived. (Psalm 42:6)

I never would have thought or believed this utter and complete shut up out of the hand of the Lord, being dead all the time would be or could last this long. (Job 19:13)

Very interesting…. As one looks back on their journey. 

“A”

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From: D—
To: A—
Sent: Sun, July 1, 2012 2:01:31 PM
Subject: Re: Remember?

Yes, I remember…

I remember the exhilaration of finding out I’d been called out and not just that, but CHOSEN! The joy of waking up early to read God’s word and to spend countless hours in the evening holed up in the back room pouring over scripture and meditating in what it all meant for me. (Matt 7:13-14)

So much so that I completely lost the relationship I had with my husband. But even that didn’t really matter. My salvation was more important than anything else and it still is.

I guess I didn’t truly understand what Jesus meant when He said to count the cost (Luke 14:28). I thought I did, but I too had no idea what I was really in for. 

The joy I felt in the beginning started to fade as I realized there was much more to the strait gate and narrow way than had been revealed at that point. 

First there was the slow separation from the world and the things in it (Luke 9:23). The resentment at my family and friends who wanted me to be involved with them; and yes, rude does seem like a good word. (Matt 10:37)

Wish I’d known you back in those days because I didn’t understand what was happening to me. Those periods of dryness were something I thought I was responsible for. I went through several surgeries during those years and found it very difficult to focus for weeks at a time. (1Peter 4:12)

I would cry out to God and ask for His help and to strengthen me because I so longed to be immersed in His word and filled up again…and He would oblige. (Psalm 40:17)

Then came the day that I realized I was not only separated from the world but that I was dead. I finally understood what “S” [another dear friend in the Lord] had been talking about when he said he was a dead man! 

And like you, I rather thought that was the end of this walk, but Lo and behold how mistaken can a person be; dead and descending down into the pit. Wow, and then…..

I remember the day I was cut off from God and knew I was going to hell. I remember it so clearly and still I didn’t really understand it at first! (Psalm 22:1)

I was in the middle of praying and all of a sudden it was like being slapped in the face and that the door which was my access to God had been slammed shut in my face!  I thought I’d done something horribly wrong and had offended God so badly that He turned His back on me. (Ps 71:9)

My voice echoed back at me like a mockery; like it was just bouncing off a giant barrier that had been put up, and I couldn’t speak anymore (Job 40:4). I just sat there in shock. That was, I don’t know, maybe 2-1/2 or 3 years ago and I’m still sitting here in shock. 

It’s just gotten worse and worse until like you say, we are utterly cut off with no refreshing to be had AT ALL!! What a strange journey it has been….

He has indeed taken us down a way we know not (Isa 42:16). Remember??  I can never forget…

“D” (~WayfaringGal~)

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From: A—
To: D—
Sent: Monday, July 2, 2012, 06:42:04 AM CDT
Subject: Re: Remember?

I could not have written better the way of salvation.  

“A”

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My Thoughts today

I think this is what fellowship is all about. Lifting each other up during those dark times, as well as singing praises to the Lord and giving thanks for all our blessings.

Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms. (Jas 5:13)

O LORD God of my salvation, I have cried day and night before thee: (Ps 88:1)
Let my prayer come before thee: incline thine ear unto my cry; (Ps 88:2)
For my soul is full of troubles: and my life draweth nigh unto the grave. (Ps 88:3)

It has been over 10 years since this email exchange and we are still occupying the time as we wait upon the Lord to manifest Himself and show us what His Divine Agape Love is, in the act of rebirth.

He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him. (John 14:21)

Amen.

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For a most-helpful guide (pdf) to the narrow way and authentic salvation—by a man who walked it to the end—click here: BeSureYouAreSaved.com